You know how some people seem like they have IT? They can just go out and they seem to be so much themselves in a room full of people.
Sometimes you have IT and you can do or say just about anything.
Sometimes you lose touch with IT entirely and you feel like no one "out there" needs to see the crap oozing from your pores in the form of self-hate.
I recently read a writing exercise that asked, "what things would you do if you had twice as much self esteem" (which is basically IT, I'm just hesitant to use the words "self esteem" because they are such loaded words. Anyway, people say I have IT, but the fact is, sometimes I am distinctly lacking any it at all. This is when I do things like, stop returning phone calls, lay in bed all day and other fairly self destructive traits I tend to sink into.
It occurred to me that if I had twice as much of IT, the list of things I would do was pretty long. This is what I came up with:
- Make my own clothing
- Sell my book
- Value my own opinion over other peoples'
- Take a swing dance class
- Take a yoga class
- Get a full back tattoo
- Get a pedicure every two weeks
- Try boxing
- Try fencing
- Look in the mirror and not say terrible things to myself
- Learn to ride a motorcycle
- Start writing my next book
And so many more that I can't think of at the moment but will add to this list as they come up.
Labels: Body Electric, tattoos