Hence, I write a new post to explain myself.
Gallows humor is a big part of my life. I have worked in HIV Inc. for about 15 years now (with a little sabbatical) and I have had lots of friends kick it. The list would be hideously depressing. In fact, I must admit, were it not for the early demise of the beautiful and talented Shane, I would not be where I am today. Sad, yet true. Finding humor in work that is stressful, frustrating or dangerous is important in order to continue doing a good job.
To familiarize you all with this particular brand of humor and just for the fun of it, I have included one of my favorites.
A conversation between two clients overheard in the halls of an APLA included, "You look great! Is that a new cane?"
Jeff used to say I was an death junkie. I wish he was still around so that I could explain that no, I'm not a death junkie, in fact, I hate the dying part.
- I want to remember everyone I've lost
- I want to do what I can to help stop the dying part
- and I want people to know that they can ask me the hard questions, the embarrassing questions, the gross questions. I like being a resource for people. It makes me feel good about myself.
This is why I am still doing this job and why I still love it. Even when I talk about mucus.